The first day after my massive stroke

Honestly, I don’t remember much about the first 10 days after the stroke because I was in ICU and was heavily medicated. What I do remember is a dream I had about being in a coffin, and I couldn’t see anything, but I could hear quite a bit of fuss outside of the coffin along with snippets of sentences, like she was too young and she’s probably better off. The first day out of ICU was when doctors told me that my stroke was caused by a large 4×7cm tumor had been growing in my right atria for 20 to 25 years and apparently a piece of it had broken away and lodged itself in my brain and it was inoperable. Heart surgery was necessary, but the neurology team and the cardiac team couldn’t agree on the timeline. They argued back and forth for 3 weeks until I was able to convince my neurologist that the tumor meant certain death and what he was worried about, my having another stroke during heart surgery was not necessarily certain death. So take the tumor out! With every beat of my heart, I was risking death. So, the surgery was performed. After the surgery, I immediately felt so much better, and everyone who saw me said that I looked like my color was better than before. It took 10 days to heal from the surgery. Currently, I’m coming up on 9 and a half years since my stroke, and I’m still trying to overcome the physical issues resulting from it . Thankfully, I’m still seeing improvements, so we have yet to see just how much recovery will happen, but I’m hopeful that it will include a walk around the block.