Don’t judge my choices until you understand my reasons.

I’m about to undergo another dental cleansing. If you recall from the last one, a cleansing is not the same as having your teeth cleaned. Never make that mistake when making your appointment. I’m finally having my lowers removed. The upper teeth were an easy heal, and,as I have a ridiculously high tolerance for dental pain, not too stressful. But for some reason, I’m nervous about being put under this time. I’m nervous about how the lower gums will heal. I’m nervous about losing weight during the healing process, as I’ve finally been able to put on about 7 lbs, but I’m still underweight. The last time I was in hospital, I overheard the doctor dictate my diagnosis,among others,into a recording device, and he started the other ones with,  otherwise healthy female… his words for me were otherwise unhealthy. Those words lit a fire for me. I’m trying to get healthier, as much as I can through diet, not that it’ll help the aneurysms in my brain, but to hopefully stop multiple infections I’ve been getting. Removing the lower teeth is part of the move towards a healthier body, and hopefully, one that is able to gain some weight and some strength. I’d love to get strong enough to confidently board a plane to Europe. That’s the long goal. Short term, strong enough to withstand a luxury train trip for 48 hours, hopefully this fall.