Feel what paralysis feels like for yourself.

I’ve posted on this topic before but it didn’t really give you, the reader the feeling of having a paralyzed body part. The way that the paralyzed part feels much heavier than before and the frustration of not being able to move it as easy as before paralysis. I’ve found that the sensation of being touched on my paralyzed side feels dulled and somehow electrified, almost like a dulled down pins and needles on my skin. It’s just as uncomfortable as it sounds. Now, for the experiment that will allow you, my gentle readers, a fleeting glimpse inside the body of a paralyzed person. WARNING! YOU MAY FEEL EMPATHY! If you’re unfamiliar with this feeling, don’t worry, it won’t hurt.

There are 2 types of paralysis the one that most affects me is spastic paralysis. What this means is the muscles of the paralyzed limb, specifically my left arm will constantly spasm. The only medication I take for this is a muscle relaxant and I take 10mgs twice daily, one with breakfast and one with dinner. The muscle relaxant stops the spasms and allows me to straighten my arm ,the muscles of which are in a constant state of firing As for my other paralyzed limb,my left leg, it still feels pins and needles type of issues and the forementioned electricity. Now an experiment that will allow you to understand what spastic paralysis feels like. Place one hand face down on a hard surface, making sure your fingers aren’t bent, now lift your ring finger up off the surface. You won’t be able to do it no matter how hard you try. That’s how my left arm, hand and fingers feel ALL THE TIME!

Another thing that I forgot to mention is how heavy a paralyzed limb feels. I’ll use the leg as an example here. Imagine that you’re in a relatively shallow pool of water, let’s say 4 feet deep, and you’re walking on the floor of the pool. Your legs get quite a workout because not only are you submerged, but the water is working against you. Now imagine the same scenario, but only one leg is in the water. The leg that is under water is what my paralyzed leg feels like, slow and heavy even on land. Because it’s just the one leg that is affected, you can see why it’s so difficult to walk.

I hope that this gives you a better understanding of what the last 7 years has been like for me physically. Once you’ve gotten your head around this, now imagine being told that it’s permanent after 6 years plus,and you’ll begin to see how I’m feeling emotionally. Mostly anger and disappointment. But both feelings are slowly ebbing, if only because it’s been 6 months since getting the news about my paralysis being permanent, and time allegedly heals, at least the emotional wounds.

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I’ve been following news about Neuralink for the past couple of years and have been very impressed with what it may be capable of doing for me specifically. The fact that I’m dealing with hemiplegia, which means that my left side is permanently paralyzed because of the massive stroke I had nearly 7 years ago. Most stroke survivors are able to recover relatively quickly from their paralysis while in hospital those people have hemiperesis, which is a temporary problem, temporary meaning more than a month but less than a couple of years. I watched from my hospital bed so many people walking out of the hospital and I really hoped I would follow them but I’m still having to use a power wheelchair, because it’s my entire left side, arm included. So you can imagine why this news is exciting to me.

I don’t want to see your opinions about Elon Musk as a person or a business owner. I realize he’s a controversial guy. I also don’t want your advice regarding the fact that I don’t want to live out the rest of my life this way. It’s my life, not yours. So if you don’t have anything positive to add to the discussion please remain silent.

I’m posting this for others, like me who are also excited by the possibility of being able to use their entire body again or possibly the first time.